It was only 2 years ago, I could say I had three babies. Oldest to Youngest, my children are 3 years and 2 months apart. I literally had 3 in diapers. And now, as I am preparing to potty train my youngest...Where did this time go? I want to stop and bottle up what I have right now with them. I do not want these moments to slip away.
Next year my son will spend 8 hours everyday away from me. I am excited for him, and scared for him, and everything...but this will be the first time in his life he has spent more then a few hours one day here and one day there away from me. Not even weekly. I know he will be ok, it is me I am worried about.
As mom, it hurts letting them go. Knowing you will not be able to protect them always. It hurts letting them grow up, knowing one day they will just leave. I want to enjoy these moments. These....right now. They are sitting in front of me eating thier lunch. They are watching bugs bunny. Waiting for Grandma and Grandpa to come pick them up for a weekend stay, so my husband and I can go away for a little alone time.
That is another stranger occurance. I realize now, that one day it will be just us again. And that we must hold on tight to what we have in each other. So, that we can never forget why we love each other. No matter what people do, we can not let anyone drive us apart. We have to remember what brought us together in the first place.
One day, they will find someone to love. My oldest has a crush already. There is a little girl in his sunday school class who is about a year older then him. She and he "flirt" as much as kindergardeners can do I guess. Her mom and dad sing with me in choir and so her and her brother sit with my son and husband during church. He is so cute with her. He is huge for his age, so he is just her size. One day, it will not be "oh she is so cute." It will be..."this is the girl I am going to marry." And one day, even our little girls will be women. How does it all change so fast?
I just want it all to slow down. I want to just take a little time...and enjoy all 3 of them right now. I want to love every minute of every day. I am lucky to just have such wonderful children to love.
